Thursday, July 19, 2012

A little bit of noneness...

This is one of those ramblers...
but I am going to throw it at you.

Yesterday we went back to Hawaiian Falls with our best pals, The Addington bunch.
It was bring-your-friends-for-free day for season pass holders, so despite snacks and lunch and the little gas it took to take us there, it was no money from my pocket for a great time of play.
It was also my niece, Kyleigh's, 5th birthday.
So Holly's daycare took a field trip and it was the perfect way to celebrate her big day!

I have been talking with my friend Whitney... and my friend Dani... who are both back to school at UTA, and I have decided to dive in.
In the kiddie pool, of course.
I am going to take 2 classes in August... and maybe 2 more in October...
Or maybe no more until the spring semester...
This is the kiddie pool for Pete's sake!
And I have time to decide.

I want to go back to school.
I need to go back to school.
I owe it to myself to go back to school.
{{^^same stuff I always say}}

But I stress easy.
And we are fine with me staying exactly where I am at.
For forever... if that's what I choose to do.

I love my job...
And have the perfect schedule known to man.

But I don't think I will be satisfied until I finish.
I just hate deciding.

I love my life.

I love the people in it.

I have times where I am buried deep in anxiety and wants and "can't wait untils" and "need to be better ats" that I don't slow down and enjoy the blessings in front of me.

But a lot, here recently, I have just had moments of gratitude.
Pure joy.
Abundance of happiness.
And a full heart.

I feel like I tell you guys a lot when I am frustrated...
So I thought I should share with you that I am happy.

And at peace in life.
With the sweetest 3 boys in the universe as my co-pilots.

Remember I had the itch to go big-car again?
I miss the space of my Tahoe...
And the excessive number of air vents to the boys on 100 degree days...

So we found the perfect Z71 Tahoe (with bucket seats-- my #1 must-have, that my last one did not have)
and we put my Murano on Craig's List.

People started contacting us-- but it was Maddox's birthday week.
One never showed up...
One needed heated seats (one of the only upgrades that mine doesn't have)...
One offered 1/2 of what we listed it at...
and another was coming from far away and our available times and his didn't mix.

In the mean time, a fellow co-worker offered a trade (plus some cash) for her fully-loaded Yukon XL.
I wanted it.
Lance was being a brat about no 4WD, and claiming it was too long.
She ended up changing her mind...

And due to me being overwhelmed, I decided to keep my car.

It is a great car.
It gets great gas mileage.
I just feel crammed and I hate that it has 87K miles and there are 2 tiny vents for the back seat. 

Just as we were going to take it off CL, we have had 3 more emails....

So we left it.
And will see.

I feel like I have been telling you about our land for a year.
And maybe I have?

After my step-dad crunching some numbers....
and a few conversations with Peggy (the owner)...
We are finally in the final stages.

However, we were originally going to buy 8 acres, but apparently there is some law that if it was less that 10.1 acres, we were going to have to pay 25K for it all to be re-plotted.  (or something-- I am just the messenger here)

So back to square one, and she agreed to sell us 2 more acres.

The guy was out there yesterday setting up our bounds and what-not for the survey.

And hopefully next week, we will have papers calling it ours!!

If you follow my Instagram, you know that I play softball these days.

I am really bad at it.
And Lance thinks he can coach me into an athlete.

You don't go 28 years of being awful at everything... never touching a bat, ever...
and turn into Josh Hamilton overnight.

I'm just going to suck, babe.

I am sorry.

He, on the other hand, is really good.

He makes us points, which is something that I have only accomplished once.
From a walk.

bla bla bla... at least it's time together and in good company!

Maddox makes me LAUGH every day.
Most things are only funny in the moment and I'd have to tell you the whole story to get to the punch line-- so we take our family-chuckle, and move on...

Sometimes he just blows me away by his sensitive nature, and big heart.

Other times, I am embarrassed by my less-than-perfect parenting, so we keep the laughs between us.

Like yesterday when Maddox called Beckham a "skunk-bag".
--The day before, Lance told me a story about some people we know, and referred to them as scumbags... so I can totally blame him for that one!

But then he asked me "what the hell?" today.
--which comes straight from my mouth, I know. 

I wasn't proud either time, but I would be lying if I didn't laugh in my head, both times.

Beckham still rarely says anything.
But his eyebrows and grunts say a lot...
He shakes his head yes or no-- and does the 'gimme' sign with his hand-- and is such a little lover, which is enough communication for this momma.

What cracks me up about him, is how many men comment on how cute he is!

A lady at our softball game stopped Lance on Sunday to say that she's never seen a little boy look so much like his daddy!  (I could see the sparkle from Lance's smile a mile away.)

But shortly after that, the biggest guy at the park asked to hold him and was showing him games on his phone!

A lifeguard came up to me yesterday at the water park, to tell me that he was having a great time watching Beckham play.  And in the most manly-est voice, he told me that he was "adorable".

I think its his care-free personality that reels people in.

I joke and say that I could toss him in a pit of lions and he would roll with it.
Although I am sure his eyebrows would be going a mile a minute and grunting the entire time!

Did I tell you I cut his hair?

Everyone commented on his little mullet... and then someone put it in a pony tail at the birthday party, so I took it as a sign and finally took the scissors to it.
I miss it already.

Just another step in him becoming a big boy.

I am so excited for fall!!

Besides it being my favorite time of the year, I am counting down the weeks until Maddox starts MDO.
(and it isn't because he just knocked the globe off of the stand and knocked an "E" off of the wall trying to catch the globe.)
It is because he is going to love school!!
I am so excited for him to do art projects, and make friends, and dress so cute everyday. 
I am excited to spend a little one on one time with B too.

I called last week about starting him in soccer too.I am excited about it.

Mainly because I work nights, so Lance will be in charge of the beatings of practice.
And I just get to show up in time to wear my team-shirt and yell for my biscuit!

It's is a Christian organization and everything I have heard about it, sounds perfect for us!

I am sure I will publish this and think of 15 more random things worth sharing...
but I am sure you are tired of reading as it is.

And since I started this post, this morning and am not finishing it until midnight...
I am hitting send and calling it a night!


  1. Yay for going back to school! It's tough with a family, but you will be so glad you did it (for yourself!). You're probably doing right just taking two classes, because those "just two classes" seem like so much more once you're all in - especially since you'll be working too!

    I just love your happy stories! And all of your stories, it's just so refreshing hearing happiness.

    I couldn't help but LOL at your Maddox Moments - I really have to watch what I say around Mace because she repeats everything (and I feel really bad when she says something I say and gets in trouble by her daddy).

    Woohoo for your land deal! At least you'll be ready to build with your Pinterest boards!

    As far as vehicles go, don't get me started! I CAN'T WAIT until I finish school and can get a big vehicle again. I search weekly and have to convince myself that getting a new vehicle right now just isn't the best idea. Imagine driving a semi-compact CAR with two babies! I can barely fit our tandem stroller in the trunk. No fun!!!

    Sweet Beckham got his first haircut! Do you save the hair? Macie's first wasn't until this year - and yes, I am a creepy hair hoarder. My mom did it and I think it's pretty neat to see my sweet blonde hairs from when I was a tiny tot.

    Gosh, I've written I whole blog of its own in your comments. I guess I should quit taking up your space and write in my own!

  2. Your rambling posts are the best Holly!
    Maddox for sure gets his humor from YOU!
    Congrats on your land!
    Everytime I see you in your softball uniform...I think of that motto- it doesn't matter if you win or lose as long as you look good playing! That's you!
    And, you know you have a cute boy when men are noticing and saying so!

  3. I just love the adventures of your little family. Reading about the haircut took me back 17 years. And good for you and school. I regret every year that I didn't get my masters. Ugh! And you absolutely have to laugh when your kids say "those things". It never quits being funny.

    I really like your blog and I want to follow, do you have twitter or facebook??

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    Have a great week

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  5. I'm so glad you have peace right now. I just wrote a tiny bit about peace on my blog this morning. :)

    Love the pictures, and you are so pretty. I love that one of you at Hawaiian Falls! I've got to check that place out. Maybe we will go next year. I'm so excited for you about school. I can't imagine juggling it all, but I know you can do it. You will be so glad that you did!

    I love B's haircut, and why do haircuts make them look like big boys?! It always gets me in the gut when we cut Boyd's hair off. Now his is getting shaggy again, and I love it, but I know he's hot and it must come off.

    Have a good Sunday friend!