a little bit of Chicken fried...

• I surprised Lance with the Zac Brown CD yesterday after a crappy trip to WalMart. He likes ZBB and was excited. I was not excited however, over Maddox telling the lady to "go away" who squatted in his face to tell him he was handsome. I wanted to crawl in a hole. I said, "Pardon me? Do we speak to adults that way?" She stuck around for an answer! I definitely wasn't going to tell her its a phrase he has learned and that he is 19 months old and doesn't know the phrase, "I'm sorry" yet. I just said, I am sorry-- a buggied away.
  
• Maddox has been sleeping in our bed since Lance started his new job... I'm thinking about inventing turtle neck pjs because even in his deepest sleep, he can get his hand down my shirt. We have GOT to get him back to his bed. This has not been an issue for us since he was 6 months old!
• I love the website iamsecond.com. And picnik.com. (completely unrelated!)
  
• I hate laundry. I don't mind cleaning any part of this house but I HATE laundry.
  
• We gave Macy away. It is bitter sweet. She was not happy here anymore and I want her to be the happy dog she was pre-Maddox. Her new mommy is already spoiling her-- sending me updates and pictures which has made it so much easier on me!
  
• I love these tiny little ladles that my Nana got for me. They are so handy! And cute.
  
• Maddox has found his peetie. He will not leave it alone. We are trying to ignore it like the doctors say, but it is very hard to ignore! He will work like crazy to suck in his belly just enough to get his hand through the Velcro in his diaper. I will be glad when we are over this stage. So... 18 years-ish? (and then its not my issue!)
  
• The decision to go back to school or not is HEAVY on my mind still. I am still trying to chase down a program... but keep hitting dead ends. Sometimes I think I am doing it for everyone else more than myself. If I were a teacher-- and made less money than I do now, but paid 10 times as much to get it-- no one would harp on me to do more. But I also know that its kind of now or never-- the longer I wait, the harder it will be. And I will be glad I went for it once it is all over with! UGH!
  
• I am ready for summer. I love wearing dresses and flipflops.
  
• and flip flops= pedicures!
• I think Maddox is hitting his terrible 2s. I sort of wish he had not been such a great kid up until this point. I am in awe of how bad he can be. I cried a lot yesterday. Today was better.
• I forgot how good crunchy peanut butter on celery is. yum.
  
• During a crying episode yesterday, I went on about how I felt as if I was 1/2-assing everyone. Maddox had changed into a monster this week, breakfast and lunch are thrown together and at times not all that healthy, dinner's usually decent but cooked at 2 or 3 in the afternoon, (so I can leave for work at 4) and re-heated to eat. The house is straightened-- maybe even clean to the naked eye-- but not to me. Laundry--grrrrr. I see my husband in passing and miss him so much at work since our schedules are opposite right now that I am not the best I can be there either. I am tired. .........A co-worker who is in her 50s told me that when my kids are grown and out of my house I can nap. She told me it will be the best sleep of my life. She said, "you aren't great at anything right now-- some things you are even shitty... you don't have time to be great! But once they are gone and you have hind sight-- you'll be proud of what you could accomplish by 1/2 assing everything, you'll have great kids and then you can rest!" I hope she's right! She at least made me smile!
• I want to learn more about my camera. I enjoy taking pics. I need TIME! Maybe tomorrow?!
• My dream is to own a baby boutique. I would name it: 2 beetles in a bucket.
  
• Lance and I are taking a vacation mid-May. Look who's excited!! [this girl] We still aren't sure where we are going but we have to take it before June and we have free vouchers for our flight that expire the 1st week in June. I hoping he'll give in and we'll go to a beach!
• I am a Words With Friends, Facebook addict. How did I live before the Iphone?!
• I'm off to get ready for work now. --And so the cycle continues. I am going to be thankful for that!! :)
• No work tomorrow. Maybe I'll find a way to use my massage gift card?!