I am literally runny out the door for a friend's birthday party... so this will be short and sweet.
I have the opportunity to go back to school, mostly online to make about 10 to maybe 20 dollars more per hour. The program starts in 6 months and is 18 months long. The clinicals will suck. I will hate them to my core but I have done them before. I can do them again.
A week ago I was 100% this would be the route I would be taking come June but then I couldn't sleep Thursday night from crunching numbers. IF I do this program, the closest baby #2 could be from Maddox would be 4 years. Remember I want THREE, and preferably FOUR babies. (hush it, to each their own)
I have been praying for a CLEAR direction. And I can talk this out backwards and forwards, weigh the pros and cons, see both sides unbelievably clear, and can not come up with a CLEAR resolve.
There are some in my life that see one side as an easy option and others who see the other side completely clear as right.
This is stressing me out to the max and I want CLARITY!
I'm not sure that I am asking for an opinion, because each person has separate roads in their maps of life that do not run parallel to mine... which would cause different answers to my question.
I think I am asking for prayer.
Thanks, love you all!